Today is my 44th Birthday.

14 years ago at 30 I opened my studio. I never knew how much I would endure and learn.

In Angel numbers 44 means  We are Not Alone.

This year has been a hell of a hard one and confusing year.
I learned more about deceit, betrayal, more ways of predators and prey, anger, unsurfaced fears, sabotage, hurt, rejection, unreliability and the wonderful game of Chess (Did you know that Chess Originated in Northern India?).

It all taught me what Opal Luna so badly wanted me to learn….
“What’s it like to Own my Power and Not Use it!” She asked.
And I thought I was owning my Powers, and now I am.
I have had to close doors that I did not want to close, actually I learned the doors closed themself, I just vocalized it. 
Yoga Sutra 2.16, that spins in my head constantly  by Patanjali says: “Pain that has not yet come is avoidable." I will add in only if we are observant and mindful to ourselves and others.

So yeah we are not alone in this game of Chess or Dance of Life. And in the game of chess it is the Queen Mother that establishes the healthy relationships with those around her. She faciliates the game. I learned about the ignorance of humans misunderstanding of the Solar and Lunar Energies. .I have learned about the sacrifice of pawns, the honorable knights and the confiding Bishop, along side the watchtowers.
All in all I learned about the hurt little boy and the hurt little girl in all of us.
I have yet to met someone who wasn't hurt. 
So I strive to strengthen our Tribe thru communication and connection, while honoring that all Tribes are different. 

I stepped into my Power, as Mother Earth walks by my side to place the pieces of life in spaces where healing can begin for all around me and all around those around them. 

And it hasn’t been me alone doing this, bc I have had some pretty amazing and Empowering Allies on my journey this year. From the Polar Bear to the Black Bear to the hidden eyes and ears of the many watchtowers that help me to maintain my path. From Megan’s Support in teaching, to Lisa’s singing Bowls and Lauren’s Oracles & Catherine’s guidance.  I FEEL so Grateful!!

Many lives I have had and they were all where I did healing work for others, but this life It is ALL about Family.
Family isn’t always blood either, bc we all run to the same Body of Water.

Speaking of a rebirth in Lake Sarnac with Lisa, where she pulled me up out of the glacier waters of what seemed forever but was just a few seconds.!!! Wow Lisa, that was powerful rebirth!

One Experience over another, and these last 2 is where I really woke. From tripping and falling on my neck on the corner of a wood stove and burning my hand to the car accident on our way to our retreat on exit 44 outside of Asheville, where we didn’t get squashed between 2 cars or hit by that semi that so gracefully went around us. All in a matter of seconds. I was triggered when I couldn’t open my door and it sent me back to when I was hit by the teacher that chose to drink her pains aways bc her husband was cheating on her and side swiping me into a ditch, pinning my door shut.

A SPIRAL of memories flooding my being.

The triggers are here to never forget and for me to not go back into my cave but strip myself of what I thought and learn the new ways and changes I must take to maintain & create the world my daughter and all the children, elders and animals deserve to live in.

44 Years ago Mami said I was born with my eyes Wide Open and yes I remember taking in the whole world. Bc we are born knowing so much more than we take credit for. 

Even though I am still bruised and healing, today begins my new dance around Soleil & Opal Luna and with these great lessons and teachers I feel even more Fearless.

My motto this year has been Que Se Joda! y Respira y And I will gladly add this in also…
Que Se Joda!!! , y Respira…. Y no me Jodas
(Translated into.... fck it! & Breathe!!! , but don't fck with me) - yes, not for the faint of heart. 
bc this Tree has strong Roots….

AND I have planted some incredibly resilient seeds.

~Maktub
Claudia

For my Birthday I am asking for donations...
To either one of the below organizations or of course to your favorite! You know I have a sweet spot for animals.